Well, today was way better than the rest of the week...I guess being with friends helps a lot when you're bummed...and mine have a tendency to make me one of the happiest girls when I'm with them. I get all smiley and giggly and like to have fun...especially when I see Weston...that makes my day. I want to say something to him about how I feel or talk to him more, but it feels like my mouth is paralyzed when I try spitting words out and nothing that makes sense comes into my mind....it's retarded, I know. I feel like I'll never be good enough for any guy sometimes, like I'm not ever going to be what someone wants. I mean I like Weston A LOT, and I THINK he likes me (I'm not sure), and I know there's a girl named Samantha who's prettier (well she looks A LIL like me), and skinnier, and everything...shes got a great personality and she's not afraid to show her true self. I don't understand why he wouldn't like her in the first place, but I don't know for sure if he's got a gf or anything...who knows--he could be going out with Samantha....but I asked Stephanie and she said he didn't have a girlfriend because he was "too shy" and hadn't asked anyone out this year. For all I know he could be looking at me cuz I'm ugly. I'll never be good enough...

   OMG today was so scary! We had to go swimming for gym, and it was fine when we were walking to one of the middle schools, and then when we were walking back it was POURING outside and thundering and lightening...and me and Alicia got into the school and our jeans were soaked. I was walking not normal (with my legs a lil spread apart cuz the water was cold on my legs) and she's like "Nicole, you're walking like you got a stick up your ass!" and I'm like "yeah that's cuz the rain that splattered on my pants is cold! and you're walking the same way, Alicia!" and then we laughed. Then I was walking to my locker to put my bag wit my bikini n towel into my locker and there's this huge window thingy in "C" building, and it lighteninged and the windows litterally shook, and I was 10 feet away from them and I jumped big. It was scary...and then we found out that our parkinglot got struck by lightening, and so did the top of the school. Grr I was sooo cold because after the rain started to dry it made me sooo cold, and I got the chills...it sucked.

   Well, I'm gonna go for now, gotta get some ZzZzZzZzZzZz's...

<3 Amor Siempre ~ NIcoLE