When you get lonely, if no one's around...you know that I'll catch you when you're falling down...

This weekend I got to go up to St. Cloud like usual on my weekend off....but as the weekend neared the end last night...he stated that he really wanted to do underwater welding. Although I really support him through everything he wants to do, I know if he got that job--it's dangerous and he could die or get seriously hurt, and that I wouldn't be able to see him for six months to two years. I told him that, and he's like "Well by the time I'd be working there six months or less, I'd be making enough to fly you out there every other weekend..." without hesitation. So he's thought about it. And I guess after working for like a year and a half he'd only have to work for like ten years after that and then he'd have enough to retire...sweet shit! It just makes me really worried...I know I could do it, but it would be super hard to be that far away from him all the time because it's not like Minnesota is near any oil rigs or anything! My heart can barely handle weeks, how am I going to do months?! It's going to suck, and even though he hasn't had interviews (or graduated--that's May 15th), I always tend to think towards the negative side of things. In a way, it's like I'm setting myself up for failure and then it won't hurt as bad if it actually does happen. I would rather he got something closer, less dangerous...but if he gets this, I know he'll follow his heart and take the chance, and that's okay cuz I don't want to hold him back. It just scares me.