I was bored, flipping through my mom's cds, and found one that didn't have the songs written on it or anything...it looked blank. So I put it in, and there were a bunch of slow songs on it....and now I'm sad. It got me thinking about a lot of things, and now if I take the cd out or not I'll still be sad....so either way I'm screwed.

     I still like Alan, and as I'm talking to Trivia online (she just got back from Charles City, Iowa today), I was really happy and everything and then I popped in this stupid cd and now I'm sad because I'm thinking about him. I still haven't gotten over him, and I don't know if I will any time soon. I'm just thinking, "GRRR, why me?!" right now. I can't even put into words what I'm exactly feeling right now. I still like Eric too, don't have to worry about that. I just don't understand how Alan can still get to me like he is right now....why are my thoughts like this???? Oh well......................gosh darnit!! This sucks. I'm home all alone until tomorrow night, so obviously I don't have anything else to do, and all my thoughts can do is wander to places where I don't want them to be...and it sucks!!!!!!!!!!!

     I don't know what to type...I'm in a ball full of mass confusion.

- -Nicole Lyn- -