I am so stressed at this moment in time because so much has been going on, and I don't know how much more of this I can handle. I've also been extremly confused lately...about a lot of things.

After I got robbed, I've been a little more paranoid about closing the blinds, checking to make sure doors are locked, and checking if my car is still sitting in the driveway at night when I go to bed. No one should have to be that worried. Even though we know who it is, and that she's going to get caught after they catch a few of her friends, too...it's still bugging me. I mean, it's gotten a lot better since it all happened, but it's still there.

My schedule has been jam-packed with stuff going on with school projects, work, and whatever else you could think of. It seems like teachers are all piling their projects in at one time, and it's making me freak. I've also been picking up a lot at work lately, because I need a little extra cash (since I lost a lot of my stuff when it got robbed), to buy a few more things to replace stuff.

I miss my friends like mad. I haven't hung out with any of them in almost a month, and I'm starting to have Alex and Travis withdrawls lol. I miss laughing and going out to eat at odd hours of the night because we all suddenly become hungry after laughing so much. I miss Alex's hugs, and Travis' house. I miss Adam's drunken stories on Sunday mornings. I miss making a fool out of myself and not caring what anyone else thought. I miss laughing until I was in tears...I miss the smiles that made my face hurt. I miss the way we'd be at Travis' house, and say we were going to leave.....but three hours later--we were still saying the same damn thing. I just miss everything. It's going to start happening again soon where I hang out with friends more..once the stress of school goes away, and the friends get more time.

I'm extremly confused about Brad...I don't know what to do. I know he'd take me back in a nano-second...but (...I know--there's always a but), I don't think I'd be able to be in one right now because of all the stress and unsure thoughts. But we've been talking a lot lately, and I'm sort of missing him, and kind of starting to like him the teeniest bit again. I just don't think I'd be able to handle a relationship right now...at all. I just don't really know what to think. Maybe after the stress of things wears off, I'll be able to talk to him about everything, but right now is just not a good idea.

I don't know what else to say...I'm just tired I guess, from staying up too late working on projects and everything this week, and yeah...

G'nite...

Nicole <3