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I'm excited for next weekend (June 21st), but nervous too for some odd reason. It's my grad party next Saturday, and a few of my friends are coming that day, but I think Josh is probably coming up with me Friday after I get off work...I've gotta talk to him this coming weekend (exchange numbers, get directions, etc.). It'll be fun, I'm sure.

Last night at work, Amanda and I talked about a lot of things...Josh being one of them. He's been a part of her and her fiance's life for at least 8-10 years, so he's like a brother to her. Since he's been hurt really bad before, he doesn't like to rush into things when it comes to relationships...because at first -- he's afraid if he starts to fall in love, she'll leave and he'll get hurt again. Honestly, that was probably one of the most comforting things to hear (not that he's afraid of getting hurt, but that he'll take it slow), because I'm pretty much in the same boat...and not only because of past boyfriends, but mostly because of my dad. We talked about a lot of things, and I completly understand his reasoning for everything. The last thing she said was that he's a keeper, and then she paused to look at me...and said she had one question to ask of me. "What's that?" was my reply. She said, "Nicole, please don't break his heart?" And I told her I wouldn't unless he broke mine. And she goes, "I don't think he will...he's been looking for 'The One' for a long time." 

He's going to get to meet almost my whole family next weekend, and that might be a great thing. And I'm not saying Josh is for sure going to be the guy I spend the rest of my life with, but there's a trend with the girls in my family...at least us girl cousins. We end up with guys who have the same name as those we're related to...for example, when my cousin dated a guy named Chris, it didn't work out--but now she's married to a Jon (which is her step-dad's name)...and my sister dated a guy named Nick, and it didn't work out--but she's pretty much engaged to Mark (which is my dad's name)...and Josh is the name of one of my cousins. Hmmm....? Andddd my sister's current boyfriend/fiance met my immediate family the same night she met him, and she's been with him for over two years...and even though Josh isn't JUST meeting me--he's meeting my family right away. Weird coincidence??

I get butterflies when I think of him, a smile on my face, and a sort of longing to get to hang out with him. It's kind of pathetic, actually.

Well, I'm done for today.

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