~*I saw you today, and as I watched you with my fake smile I could hear my heart break, and I could feel it being torn apart. It was then that I realized I’m truly just a friend, and that’s all I’ll ever be…*~

**I look up at the stars and wonder who you’re with and where you are. I don’t think I can take another night…I’m giving up this fight…**\

   Today I saw Weston with this girl named Courtney...which I don't really like that much because she's a HUGE ditz...and I don't know but they MIGHT be going out....I'm not positive, but I sure hope not!! She was flirting with him, and when we were in the computer lab in Spanish, she's like "WESTON! I saved you a spot!" in a flirty voice. If he's going out with her I'm seriously gonna cry really hard! I know he's not mine, but it still hurts really bad. Stephanie didn't ask him today because she thought...I don't even know I'll want to know when she does ask him, because I'm scared. Already I feel like shit, and once again like I'm not good enough. She's popular, pretty, nice....but SOOOO DITZY!!! I know I'm probably making way too many assumptions, but I can't help it. If he IS going out with her I'm for sure giving up on him...I can't take it anymore!!!! I won't hold onto something I can't have!! ((Sorry Jenne....there night not be a 'Nicoley and Westoney' anymore....))

   Ugh, I hate the days when my dad is crabby ((A LOT OF THE TIME)), because it brings me down so much!! I got yelled at twice for things I didn't do in like--20 minutes!! And every few words was "FUCK" and I just am soooo sick of it!! I hate when my dad is home cuz he makes me so NOT happy....I can be totally happy, and then he walkes in the door and I turn angry or sad. Can't he see that I've been hapy for the past month and a half or more????!!!! I guess not, because he aLwAyS ruins it!! I'm fucking done!!!

   Okay--enough venting!! You all probably don't care anyways...so later gators!!

</3  ~*NiCoLe*~