I had a really good day today....lotsa laughs and plenty of smiles. Tonight, my confermation group went and rang bells at Cub for the salvation army for two hours. It was for a good cause, but two hours freezing my butt off is quite a long time if ya ask me!! I froze my fingers, toes, smile, and legs off...lol well not litterally but you get what I mean. I hope. LOL.

          So, I've been talking to Alan a lot recently. I know it's probably not a very good thing for my heart to do right now, but I don't care. He seems really sad lately...and it bugs me. He won't open up as much as he used to ((but at least I can still make him laugh!!!)), and that kind of makes me mad...I think a lot of it is because of how Jordyn hurt him. Oh, and I just found out today, that she's going out with one of Alan's best friends, Lee. Gosh, that just pisses me off. I asked her if Alan knew, and she told me he did and that he didn't seem to mind...well fricken a--he's not going to show it!! DUH! I mean, come on--who's gonna tell their ex that it hurts that they're going out with their best friend?! NO ONE!! I just don't understand why he doesn't tell her that he doesn't like it or something. The thing with her going out with Lee---she's going to chop him up, just like she did to Alan...and it's not going to be a pretty sight. I just hate that Alan feels like this. He's always telling me how he hates that he's single, but yet he doesn't like anyone...maybe it's a hint. I don't know. I really don't think he's all the way over Jordyn though. I can't figure out why he won't open up to me...it's a mystery to me. He always could before, and now he can't..and it hurts. Ever since everything with Jordyn--he hasn't been able to open up or really talk to me like we used to.....it sucks. I can't believe I still kind of like him after all this...but I do. It's a puzzle.

        This is something I found...and it's kind of cute::

DEAR SANTA,
I know it might be a little too late to write you this, but I'm desperate. I have tried so hard all of these years to make sure that I was very good, & I don't think you've been disappointed yet. So I was writing this letter to kind of ask you  for a favor. This year, I don't want any of those silly presents; no abercrombie jeans or coach purses. All I want this year is someone who is going to love me. Someone who takes time out of his day just to make sure that I woke up alright. Or maybe someone who will call me at 3 in the morning just to tell me that he can't wait to see me again. I've been waiting a long time for someone special Santa, & this year sounds like a good year for him to be mine. So Santa, if you read this letter & don't think you can find anyone, that's alright. It's not like I haven't been disappointed before..
Love,
A Lonely Girl

       Well, I'll post more a different time I guess. Goodnight.

<3 Nicole