Today was the last day of school....still does not feel like it. It feels like Monday we're going to be back at school again. Last Friday was the senior's last day--it made me sad because all my seniors in my photography class were gone on monday afternoon.
I'm honestly afraid to become an actual senior. I'm afraid of what life is going to become to be after school is over next year. I'm going to miss the usual routine in the morning. I'm going to miss the school lunches, sadly. I'm going to miss my friends like crazy, and all the times we had and could have but are not guaranteed. It's just not going to be the same life as I know it as. It's sad to think that I'm going to just be thrown out into the "real world" in a split second. When graduation is over next June, it'll be done....I'll be done with the special routine since kindergarten, friends won't be seen every day, and things just won't be the same. I'm going to miss everything...even all the stupid things we had to go through to get to where we're going to be.
I'm afraid...afraid of who I'll become...afraid I'm going to hate what I want to do with my life...afraid of all the people I'm going to lose when it's all said and done...afraid of life as I know it. I hate this. I'm going to cry my heart out at the end of next year.
For now, I'm just going to try to have an amazing summer. Somehow, even though most of the stuff done is going to be simple, it's going to end up to be the best summer so far.
There's so much I've been through in the past few weeks::
-Simone's brother running away.
-Him coming back after a week and a half.
-Some dumbass stealing my iPod last Thursday.
-Finals.
-Steph's wedding.
-Debate
-Good times.
-Senior's graduating
-Photography stress
-EVERYTHING you could imagine.
Some for the good, some not so good. I've made it through it all though. So it's all good....KEEP ON TRUCKING, right?
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