Alright, after talking to Ricky tonight....I realized that the distance is way too much for a girl my age to handle, ya know?? I feel really really guilty now though....I didn't want to really do it but when we're older maybe it'll work out better because then we can afford to go see each other and stuff...I just didn't think it would be this hard to break up with someone...I feel soooooooooo bad. I hate this...I feel like crying...I want the pain to go away!!! He said he understands and everything, but that I'm the only girl who matters to him and he'll wait for me but I can see other guys and stuff...he'll still be there waiting for me in the end. He also said that that i should see other guys but he'll wait for me til im older and not see any other girls....and he's like "if you find a guy better than me, and you will, someone who will treat you like a princess go for him...you'll find him baby, he'll treat you like a princess, give you all the things you want, make you happy..." but I don't want a guy to buy me everything...just being with them makes me sooooo happy. I think I'll just try to find someone closer like him??...I don't really know what I want, or what to do...but I'll think of something

   Well..maybe in a different post I'll talk about it more, right now it hurts to talk about it..I'm almost in tears..me and my stupid head need to go cry....g'nite all!!!

~*NICOLE*~