Today my grandpa got transferred to the Fargo hospital. Which was something I thought wouldn't be a good sign at all. Sine he's been in Fargo, his heart rate has gone from 245 (extremly high and close to having a heart attack), to 80 (normal)...which is awesome!! He's still having breathing issues, but that has gotten a TINY bit better, but his heart rate has gone down a lot, which is a very good sign, which  means his heart doesn't have to work so hard, and his lungs may heal faster now. On Saturday, if he keeps getting a teensy bit better each day, they're going to start lung therapy. He'll be there for a long while yet, but things are starting to look up now!! That relieves a little stress...whoooeeee!!

     Looking back, and thinking while I was in confermation...I came to a few realizations about myself. I think the reason why I cling to the simple things and get so frazzled (mean's stressed...but I can't say the word without smiling lol..I know--I'm weird!), when things go wrong is because I've had sooo many things go wrong in my life and in the lives of people around me. I've been through experiances that many have only heard about...and while it's hurt me and made me sad for a while--it's only made me a stronger person. I know I can be weak when it comes to certain things, and that I'm soft-hearted, yet I know how to deal with things pretty well considering all I've been through.

     Another thing, quite a few people are so quick to judge others who aren't like them, and I try so hard not to do that because I've seen it happen and how it affects the so-called "outcasts" and I absolutly hate it. And I also hate it when someone has a visable disability, and people are so quick to judge, and automatically go right to thinking they're stupid. I accept them for who they are--no matter what's wrong with them or how they look...they're actually one of the most caring types of people I know. I get on a personal level with them, and actually care about what they have to say. I know it's hard for a lot of people to accept someone like that, but that's because they've never been exposed to it like I have, and they don't really get that they're people just like us and feel the same feelings we do.

     And, odd as it may seem, I cling to people (not litterally), and I hate being alone most of the time...I'm afraid of being alone for the rest of my life, and I tend to get emotionally attatched to people. I've been told a lot lately that there's just something about me that makes me seem so friendly and caring right from the start...I like hearing that.

     Oh yay!!! April 14th. Energy Xcel Center in St Paul. Hawthorne Heights. The All American Rejects. From First to Last. And Fall Out Boy. I get to go to that concert...it's going to be an amazing show!!!! I'm way excited now...I can not wait!! That's my birthday/Christmas present from Trivia. Ahhh I'm way excited!!! We might be staying in a hotel down there that night...Trivia, Me, Shelby, Jessi, Jake, and Ryan...the two boys being in a seperate room, of course !!! lol. I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!

      Well, there's something for you to read tonight....g'nite all!!!!!!!!

<3 Nicole Lyn